love me for me part 3

This chapter is more Harry’s side of the story. I hope you like the story. Please leave feedback. 

Maybe somewhere deep down Harry knew he was doing the wrong thing, but he thought that if Niall was just as fucked up as him, it would feel less lonely, that it would make him feel better about life and himself. He loved Niall, he truly did, and he was so scared that when Niall would see how much Liam could love him and how good Liam was, that he’d leave Harry. Harry was trying so desperately trying to keep Niall for himself, that he forgot about how he was doing that, it all just seemed right at the moment.

It made Harry smile though when just after last night’s concert ended Liam tried to hug Niall and Niall told him to fuck off. Then he and Niall had shared a lovely kiss, and Liam had asked if Niall was on his period and Niall had slapped him and stormed off. Harry found it all so amazing, so beautiful. He just liked it when things got fucked up.

Sometimes Harry wondered if something was a little twisted in his mind, but he always dismissed those thoughts quickly. Harry had other things to focus on, like eating, or more specific not eating. In Harry’s opinion he also had to watch out that Niall didn’t eat bad things, something his boyfriend tended to do sometimes, and then he had to come up with good punishments for it. It wasn’t always easy to come up with something creative, but Harry managed, he always did, and if he didn’t he just hit Niall. Hitting people was like a wake up call, Harry thought, they’d always behave better after he did that. Well atleast Niall did.

Harry also had to think of rewards when Niall ate the right things, or not at all. Or when Niall worked out and went over the top. It made him so proud, so happy. He liked it when Niall did that, because it made him feel okay whenever he did it. He would take Niall out to a food-free place, because that was better for both of them, or he’d come up with other rewards, as long as they didn’t involved food Harry was okay with rewards.

Sometimes Niall would smile at Harry and it wouldn’t be faked, and Harry loved it. To Harry it showed that people could be happy without food, as long as they got someone to share those thoughts with. Harry knew the others didn’t understand, but Niall did, and it made Harry so lucky. The others, except Louis, were ignorant when it came to bad food, Niall used to be, but Harry was proud of himself, because he got it out of Niall’s system.